“A remarkable collection of hard-earned, melancholic wisdom.”
—Kirkus Reviews

Finalist, 2016 Lambda Literary Award-Gay Biography, Memoir






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Publication date:

December 1, 2015

Until My Heart Stops


a memoir by Jameson Currier


Until My Heart Stops assembles more than fifty works of nonfiction written by the author over a thirty-year period, including many published during the height of the AIDS epidemic. The result is a searing and poignant memoir of an artist finding his voice during difficult times. Once again Currier doesn’t shy away from revealing personal moments and emotions, this time his own, including his love and retreat from the theater, his grappling with boyfriends and long-term relationships, and the details into his own medical diagnosis of HCM — hypertrophic cardiomyopathy, a condition of excessive thickening of the heart muscle for which there is no apparent cause or cure.

“Currier is a masterful essayist, adept at lingering over a meaningful detail or capturing a complex emotion in a simple phrase.”

Kirkus Reviews

“Everything in this collection resonates with authenticity. The sections where Currier writes about AIDS are particularly powerful and heartrending.
—David Swatling, Chelsea Station


Praise for Until My Heart Stops

“The mix of voices and perspectives, all from one man at different ages and states of maturity, gives this collection a kaleidoscopic quality, and a multifarious vision emerges that’s simultaneously fractured and whole.”

Kirkus Review

“A wealth of wisdom about our collective past can be found within our personal stories when they are told with such humility, humor, and profound introspection.”
—David Swatling, Chelsea Station

“Beautifully written prose. I am so pleased that Currier has included some wonderfully written articles about AIDS and his reaction to the seemingly constant deaths of so many people he had known. This is so important to have these articles since we should never allow ourselves to forget that time and the people we lost.”

Amos Lassen, Reviews by Amos Lassen

“Achingly poignant and full of humor. Currier addresses topics familiar to gay men—sex and the search thereof, love and relationships, AIDS and loss—all rendered in vivid details that ring with the clarity of Truth.”
—Hank Trout, Art & Understanding

“A preservation of pieces of a personal history, and works that are, even when removed from context, still resonant.”

—Noe Kamelamela, Edge

Finalist, 2016 Lambda Literary Award-Gay Biography, Memoir



About the author

Jameson Currier is the author of seven novels, four collections of short fiction, and a memoir.

Also by Jameson Currier from Chelsea Station Editions: A Gathering Storm, Based on a True Story; Dancing on the Moon; Desire, Lust, Passion, Sex; Still Dancing; The Forever Marathon; The Haunted Heart and Other Tales; The Third Buddha; The Wolf at the Door; What Comes Around; and Where the Rainbow Ends.


Praise for the writings of Jameson Currier


“Currier is adept at drawing a fine line between the erotic and the tragic, and at telling stories that ‘although personal, are also the stories of our community.’ "

The New York Times Book Review

“A writer who consistently surprises and delights, Currier’s dynamism will surely carry his literary career to higher heights.”
—Bay Area Reporter

“The breadth of Currier’s personal experience is evident in his writing, which is moving without resorting to melodrama, familiar without feeling clichéd.”
—Windy City Times


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